Second in Heaven : Mama's Letter to Jibrael8:30:00 AM
Dear my sweet angel beautiful Jibrael, it's our favourite day today :) Friday. You are just too beautiful for this earth. I can't believe it has been two years. I miss you. I miss having you inside my belly and I miss you kicking and punching me from the inside. That always made me smile and sometimes laugh a little because I am ticklish like that. I miss holding your fingers. I miss it when your tiny fingers grabbed mine. I miss looking at your beautiful face and perfect body. I miss listening to the sounds you made when you came out of my belly. I miss having you in front of me and in my arms. I miss having your picture taken by your Abah. I miss everything about you. Some of the most beautiful sweet amazing moments in my life, I am very blessed to experience with you, my first child.
I wonder how you are doing over there. I'm sure you are having a wonderful time up there in heaven. :) I know that every single day of you in heaven is better than all the birthday parties of anyone here in this world combined. I am sorry I did not visit you on the day of your second birthday in heaven this year. I planned to do it with your Abah. But both of us just couldn't. I hope and pray that you are not mad at us. We are not as strong as you. Thank you for being the inspiration that you have been to us and for teaching us so many life lessons. You have taught me so much. It's funny how, I am supposed to be teaching you about life but instead you're the one teaching me. I am so blessed to be given the greatest gift a parent could ever ask for. A beautiful child, God's amazing creation. We love you so much only God hows. We miss you and another day of us getting older is a day closer for us to meet you. You are always in my prayers, so I hope you always pray for me, your Abah, the rest of the family and everyone who's been praying for you too.
I don't know about time over there but time in this world is pretty short. I can't believe that 2 years has passed. God is Great. It feels like it was only yesterday that I have just given birth to you. However, when I look forward, it seems like it it still a long journey for me to go and meet you. I will never know. I am sorry that sometimes late at night when nobody is watching I tear a little when it gets too painful. I know I shouldn't be crying. But, I know it will be worth the wait. However, I pray that God will reunite us that one sweet day. I believe that it will be worth the wait. I know meeting you in that place is worth all the pain and the tears. InsyaAllah. Thank you for making me a mother. Alhamdulillah. Mama will strive my best to be worthy of meeting you in heaven. There are a lot of times that I may have slipped but please pray for me. Please pray that Allah will forgive my flaws and weaknesses.
My journey to meet you will continue forever until my last breath... I love you very much Jibrael... Happy second in Heaven :) All praises to the Creator who created everything.
Here's our song. The last song I sang to you. I never forget that beautiful moment. Makes my heart smile every time. :)
Wrote about this song and her 1st birthday : Counting Down the Days : 14.1.14