A continuation of my previous posts:-
Expect the Unexpected. The
Training at the Hospital
Being
pregnant. Becoming a mother. Staying at the hospital for 78 days and then losing
my baby.
It
was unexpected but it all turned out to be another life-changing experience. I
had another life-changing experience when I went for Umrah when I finally
understood the meaning of True Love (see Part 1 : Unworthy Me). I realized
in the hospital that the Umrah trip actually prepared me for my unexpected
long-stay at the hospital.
Before
my recent hospitalization, not many people would know that I was actually
warded in the hospital for more than a month in 2 different hospitals in July
2010. I was hospitalized two weeks before, during and a month after my wedding (see Wedding Photos & Videos 1). I was granted special
permission to leave the hospital just to attend my solemnization and wedding
ceremonies, before being re-admitted. However, it was different back then. I
lacked the wisdom. I failed to see it as a test from Him. I didn't accept what
happened to me. I didn’t turn to Him.
That
is why I am glad that I went for my Umrah before my recent hospitalization. I found myself much more calmer
and more accepting of my situation. That was needed as I was hospitalized for a
much longer period this time. Valuable experience and training indeed.
Suddenly, I realize that I see things from a different perspective now. Not a
different perspective from everyone else, but a different perspective from my
own previous self, just over two years ago. I wouldn't have expected it.