Friday, April 17, 2015

KL City Oxblood

Managed to get my hands on the black KL City Scarf from dUCkscarves that everyone went crazy about! This is the full look I wore  to the Sekuntum Mawar Merah theatre which I blogged awhile back. Paired the scarf with aere's OLIVA top together with my husband's pants. (Yes, I can wear my husband's pants. Not the other way around though)

I created the OLIVA as a comfy, no-need-to-think staple top that I can wear daily to work, without looking lazy. The fabric also is luxe enough to make it look good on its own. 

Shea Rasol captured all the photos above and I miss us taking photos of each other!

I also miss drinking through a straw right now as I just had surgery to remove all 4 of my wisdom tests 2 days ago.

Outfit Details :
KL City scarf from dUCkscarves
OLIVA Oversized Buttoned Cuffs Top in Oxblood from aere


Monday, April 13, 2015

Second in Heaven : The Supposed Special Day

13th April 2015. Her estimated due date was 12/13th April 2013. It was supposed to be her birthday. But that was what it was. Her "estimated" due date.  

Not everyone will remember a baby's EDD or even birthday. But their parents will always remember it. Always.

You can't tell them to forget it. It's just something that we will always remember even more when they are no longer with us. 

How can anyone forget the day they gave birth to their child? I for one never could. It was one of the most beautiful moments I have ever experienced in my entire life. To witness the miracle of God's creation.

I wrote about how difficult it was for me and the husband to visit our daughter's grave this year in my post Second in Heaven 15.1.15. I didn't understand why it was so difficult. We planned to go but couldn't. I prayed for the strength to go to her kubur (grave) after umrah but we both still couldn't. We kept ourselves busy with work and everything else. She was in our minds and thoughts all the time but we couldn't bring ourselves to visit her grave. 

Flashbacks. Beautiful moments, painful moments all came running through my mind. Moments when she was still with us. To others it may seem that it's just a short time, but for me it feels like a lifetime. Her lifetime.

Finally yesterday, we went. We visited her...

I can't continue writing... I whatsapped the husband. He told me to continue writing... So many things I'm feeling in my heart and so many things I'm thinking about in my mind... I couldn't stop my tears from flowing just now. Trying to hide from anyone see me crying. 

I just finished reading my last letter to her. Second in Heaven : Mama's Letter to Jibrael.

I'm okay now. Managed to stop the tears from running down my cheeks.

The thing is, when I went to her grave yesterday I didn't cry. We both didn't cry for the first time. The weather was nice because the rain just stopped so it wasn't hot. It was cool. We still haven't done anything about the grave. Haven't decorated it or whatever you call it. There were chickens and cats running around. Previously I've never seen chicken and cats running around like that at her grave.

My daughter is too beautiful for earth. God knows best. Her soul is too pure. So instead of going through life on earth God sent her straight to heaven instead. Where there is no pain, no hurt, no suffering and no need for painful tears. She's at a place where all of should aim to go to when our time in this earth is up. We don't know when that will be. For my daughter, she lived in this world less than a day. That is already a gift in itself and I'm thankful to witness God's miracle through her. 

Life is short. Sometimes we might think that it's taking a long time for us to go to the future but when we look back we always feel that time is moving so fast. For me, it has already been two years since she went away and left this world. It really feels like yesterday especially on dates like this, I feel it even more. Flashbacks kept running through my head which makes it hard for me to try and focus on other things. But, of course, I try my best to focus on life and other responsibilities that I have right now. Whether I succeed or not, is a totally different thing altogether.

Eventhough it wasn't easy but I am blessed that the husband is with me this year. Alhamdulillah. Last year he wasn't. I wrote last year in Her Due Date : 13.4.13 : Expect the Unexpected XV.

I really don't know how to do this sometimes. The husband too. It's not something we both expected. I didnt expect it won't be easy for us to do certain things that before this would be so easy to do. I didnt expect that the second year will be tougher than before. We are still learning each and every single day on how to go through it. I guess the learning is a never ending process. Just like other parents learn every single day on how to raise their kids, parents like me and Khubayb learn how to cope with the loss of a child. Parents of children in heaven. We are really trying our very best to learn.

Yesterday was an achievement for the both of us. :) For both me and my husband to bring ourselves to our daughter, Jibrael's grave. Finally we have the strength this year, to go. All strength and power comes from the Almighty.

I miss her. So much.

And don't tell me it's wrong to miss my daughter because missing is the price we pay when we love someone so  much. And it is not wrong to love our own child.

May Allah protect her and let her have the best of time up there in heaven. A wonderful time none of us can even begin to imagine. May our love for our daughter and the remembrance brings us closer to the One who created love and everything that exists. May we all be blessed with His Love. 


Friday, April 10, 2015

Friday For Two

One of my earliest memories of TGIF was 6 years ago when my friends surprised me for my birthday. They made me stand on a chair and sing in public in front of my friends and the TGIF crew. It was at TGIF the Curve. It was embarrassing at the time but looking back, the antics of the fun TGIF crew made it a very memorable occasion.

I found out about TGIF’s meal for two promotion and just couldn't refuse to try it. It is super affordable as we only have to pay RM45.90++ for 2 main dishes and an appetizer. TGIF's famous good food at such an affordable price? I just had to check it out.

So last week, I had a date with fellow blogger Namee Roslan for a food tasting session of the promotion. Both of us were already super excited to meet each other and have dinner together the week before! I’ve been to TGIF a number of times before but I was really excited to see how the Meal for 2 promotion works and the mains on offer.

Boy, TGIF never fails to disappoint!  There are four appetizers to choose from, but of course, during the food tasting we could taste all 4. The portions were very huge and generous! We could've been full just from eating the appetizers alone. It's definitely meant for sharing.

Then we chose our individual main course. All of the choices looked mouth-watering and we were spoilt for choice. Namee and I decided to share our main courses too because we couldn't decide on just one. I ordered the Wild Mushroom Farfalle and Namee decided on the Fish and Chips. Both of the meals were delicious and we kept on swapping plates. In the end, we were both fighting over the last serving of the pasta. Hehe.

The portions for the mains are also very big and its also for sharing. There’s a variety of dishes to choose from too. Some of them include Cajun Chicken Salad, Hibachi Chicken Skewers, Chili & Garlic Shrimp and more! 

The promotion is definitely well worth it. In fact, just a few days later after the food tasting, last weekend, I brought my family to TGI because of the promotion. Since there were 8 of us, it was easy for us to take up the 4 sets for sharing.

Just look at the photos below of the food we had and prepare to be salivating!  Im not sure when the promo will end so you guys better go and check it out now!


Chop House Chicken

Fish and Chips

Chicken Fajitas Nachos 

Hibachi Chicken Skewers

Wild Mushroom Farfalle