A continuation of my previous posts:-
Expect the Unexpected. The Training at the Hospital
Being pregnant. Becoming a mother. Staying at the hospital for 78 days and then losing my baby.
It was unexpected but it all turned out to be another life-changing experience. I had another life-changing experience when I went for Umrah when I finally understood the meaning of True Love (see Part 1 : Unworthy Me). I realized in the hospital that the Umrah trip actually prepared me for my unexpected long-stay at the hospital.
Before my recent hospitalization, not many people would know that I was actually warded in the hospital for more than a month in 2 different hospitals in July 2010. I was hospitalized two weeks before, during and a month after my wedding (see Wedding Photos & Videos 1). I was granted special permission to leave the hospital just to attend my solemnization and wedding ceremonies, before being re-admitted. However, it was different back then. I lacked the wisdom. I failed to see it as a test from Him. I didn't accept what happened to me. I didn’t turn to Him.
That is why I am glad that I went for my Umrah before my recent hospitalization. I found myself much more calmer and more accepting of my situation. That was needed as I was hospitalized for a much longer period this time. Valuable experience and training indeed. Suddenly, I realize that I see things from a different perspective now. Not a different perspective from everyone else, but a different perspective from my own previous self, just over two years ago. I wouldn't have expected it.