RISING
3:51:00 PMSalam and hi everyone,
Wow, i thought it was just a year since my last post but just realised it has been over a year! My last post was in April 2020. I think it was just before COVID hit.
So many things happened in between and I realise that I've been missing blogging and writing, its a form of therapy and healing for me personally.
I've kept a lot to myself ever since coz I was trying to adapt, accept and understand what I've been going through the past few years. Now that 2022 is coming to an end, I hope I will be able to share more in 2023.
#BismillahiMasyaAllah There were moments in my life that I thought I couldnt do anything anymore. The future seemed bleak. I was at my lowest and it was a dark phase for me.
I was severely physically disabled and it also affected me mentally, emotionally & spiritually. I’m still disabled now in different ways but at those times it felt like I was worthless, my self esteem was at its lowest and hopelessness surrounded me.
I kept to myself, suppressed it and only a handful of people saw what I went through.
Each time it happened after a while (which felt so long) there are situations, events or people in life who came that uplifted me, brought me out of my comfort zone, challenged me and made me feel like Ive achieved something (no matter how small) despite the circumstances.
Am going through something tough now too and been feeling pretty low and I've learnt now not to keep it & suppress so much and release what I feel in some ways to not let my emotions control me. I learned the hard way that suppressing those emotions will cause greater harm than good.
I’m sharing this post because when I captured this it was a good day and it is a reminder that despite going through the worst of days, there are also good days like this which is a reminder that I have actually achieved something despite those challenges.
Eventhough this year has been very tough for me personally (for reasons I wont share here), Alhamdulillah there are things that are also good and achievements that Alhamdulillah I achieved this year.
And I plan to share those here on the blog just for me to look back at and remind myself to be grateful and that when we are down and at our lowest, the only way to go is up.
Eventhough it took me some time to share this photo which was captured on my birthday on 1st Nov earlier, I needed to remind myself of how I came back up after being so so low and down.
Alhamdulillah.
Its surreal when I look back at this.
This is a reminder for myself that everything is temporary be it the good things and the bad things. The sun comes out after the rain. Nothing belongs to us and everything hasd been predetermined by God.
Its a reminder that I've been through the worst and if I managed to go through those things, I can go through anything with Allah’s help and the support of those around me insyaAllah.
A reminder that He wouldnt test us with things that we cannot bear.
Alhamdulillah for the good and the bad.
InsyaAllah I will share the highlights moving forward to remind myself of the good things that happened the past year.
These are some of the shots taken on my birthday this year. On my birthday, I started to write for my blog again but I didnt post it. It was in my draft. So here are the shots from my birthday with what I wrote on the day.
1.11.22 Head in the clouds but feet still firmly in the ground. Another year has passed Alhamdulillah. There are too many things in my mind that I would like to share but I’ve been pondering a lot especially the past few weeks.
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Reorganising my thoughts and hopefully I’m able to write more. I was looking through my blog on the things I wrote and it reminded me of so many things. The things Ive suffered, the ones i survived and the blessings, joy and achievements in the past.
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Sayang nya i realised since ive been ill I didnt share as much anymore even though Ive gone through some personally tough life challenges.
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I miss writing. I miss expressing myself.
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Thank you to those who texted me personally today, took some time for me today and sending your prayers to me today. You know who you are and know that I really appreciate it so much. It means so so much to me you really have no idea 💗
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May God bless you all with strength, healimg, good health, contentment and His Love always.
I'm reminded of this and hope that I'm going through a tough time again I will always be reminded of this.
2:286
"Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity.
It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained,
and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned.
Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred.
Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us.
Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear.
And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us.
You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people."
Arabic
لَا يُكَلِّفُ ٱللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا ۚ لَهاَ مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا ٱكْتَسَبَتْ ۗ رَبَّنَا لَا تُؤَاخِذْنَآ إِن نَّسِينَآ أَوْ أَخْطَأْ نَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَآ إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ و عَلَى ٱلَّذِيْنَ مِن قَبْلِنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لَا طَا قَةَ لَنَا بِهِ ۦ ۖ وَٱعْفُ عَنَّا وَٱغْفِرْ لَنَا وَٱرْحَمْنَآ ۚ أَنْتَ مَوْلَىٰنَا فَٱنْصُرْنَا عَلَى ٱلْقَوْمِ ٱلْكٰفِرِيْنَ ﴿٢٨٦﴾
Pronunciation
2:286 Laa yukalliful-laahu nafsan illaa wus'ahaa;
Lahaa ma-kasabat wa-aa'laihaa mak-tasabat;
Rabbana laa tu'aakhid-naa in’naa-seenaa aw-akhtaa’naa;
Rabbana wa-laa tahmil-alainaa isran kamaa hamal’tahoo alal-ladhina min qablinaa;
Rabbana wala tu’ham-milna ma-laa-taa qata-lanaa bih;
Wa'fu ann’aa waghfir-lana war-ham’naa;
Anta mawlana fansur-na alal qaw-mil kaa’fireen
Translation: Sahih International
PEACE & LOVE!
1 comments
I have been following you since before you became a mother. watching your journey inspires me and helps me see the beauty in Islam. I am glad you are writing more. I have autoimmune illnesses and it can be very hard
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