It's been a family tradition on my father's side that the night before Eid or the last day of Ramadhan is spent together at my eldest aunt's house. This has been the tradition for as long as I can remember. When they stayed in Ipoh, we traveled back to Ipoh just to be there the night before Raya. In recent years, even though some of my dad's siblings are not staying in KL, everyone will still gather at my aunt's place because that was where my grandmother Tah was staying. Including last year. 

My mum and aunts would prepare the best and most mouthwatering Malay dishes in the world. Everyone would get together to break fast together, then perform Maghrib prayers followed by the men leading the takbir raya. After everyone is full, the cousins would have a bit of fun as we would gather outside to play with fireworks. I'll share the pictures in another post.

This year, the ladies were asked to come in their kaftans, just to set a theme. And once my big family comes together, you know you can expect a whole lot of photos too! 

Although it was a joyous occasion, shared in the good company of family and great food, it was also a very emotional Eid for me. The most difficult Eid I ever had to face. The mental blocks and the emotional breakdowns in front of everyone. (Hence, the massive eyebags and swollen face. Ignore please) I'll share that in a different post, God-willing. It's not an easy thing to share. Suffice for me to say that, my late daughter is in mind and heart every single second and never would I have imagined that I would be spending this Eid without her with me and my husband in this world. God has better plans for all of us.

In the meantime, I hope everyone enjoyed their Eid and holidays! :) Let's be thankful for all that we have been blessed with in this temporary world we live in.

Cousins and aunties. 

Me, Fasha Sandha, Nora Danish, Nadya Danish, 

Sharina Mahzlan, Putri Azalea Ramli, Putri Zaralisa Adril, 

Raja Noora Ashikin, Rozy Danish, Sally Talib, Putri Yasmin Ramli, 

Putri Faralisa Sofia, Raja Rabiatun Aduah.

Fasha, Nora and me with Putra Rayfal Ramli and Alriz Alfi

Mummy Putra Rayqal Ramli and Mama Putri Jibrael Zumirrah with Putra Rayfal Ramli.

I always feel that babies know what mothers are going through. I only feel this most after I became a mother myself. There's some sort of a connection with babies I've met.

I feel that Rayfal can sense something since he was in Fasha's womb during the times Fasha & Yeop Rizal came and visited me in the hospital while I was carrying Jibrael. The way Rayfal looked into my eyes, the way he tried to converse with me and the smiles that he gave me that night is really comforting. I think he misses Jibrael too. :) 

 Alia Alizar, Putri Zaralisa Adril and me

 PEACE & LOVE!